Unfortunate

I love you

I know it’s ill timed

Unfortunate.

I loved you once before

And then I stopped

Or so I made you believe

But the truth is

I have loved you since I laid eyes on you

It’s silly

The way love works

Countless infatuations

I make a fuss over

That in the end

Won’t mean anything

Don’t mean anything

That when I look back, are breaks a in dull life

Nothing more

Not what I feel for you

Because my love for you

Is torment not treat

A bitter-sweet harassment

Of my locked away heart

Kept clean

For the one who will steal it away from all others

You

You’ll be that one

You are that one now

Maybe they’ll be another 

Who’ll fight it away

From your tight grip

But until then

You have me glued to your perfection and beauty

Nightmare

Where were you when I needed you?

You didn’t answer my calls

Reply to my texts

It seemed as if you had forgotten me

I sent you letters

Envelope sealed with a kiss

Where were you?

I found some one new

They answered me

They remembered me

But they weren’t you

Couldn’t understand why I missed you so

So they left too

But now your back

You say it was all a dream

That the letters never sent

The phone never rang

That you could never forget me

That you’d never leave me

It was just a nightmare

Lolita Humbert, Humbert Lolita

Lolita, small, infantile

Humbert, large and tall

Lolita, naïve, enchanting

Humbert hurt and lost.

Humbert, tall, misleading

Lolita, short, nymphet

Humbert, old, ugly

Lolita, young, becoming

The difference between Lolita

The similarities between Humbert

The youthfulness of Lolita

The experience of Humbert

The weakness of Lolita

The power of Humbert

The power of Lolita

The weakness of Humbert

The temptation of Lolita

The promise of Humbert

The deceit of Lolita

The devotion of Humbert

Kiss ME

Press your lips against mine

Softly, Gently

Hold my head with your hands

Firmly, Kindly

Deepen our kiss with love

Passionately, Adoringly

Never let me go

Eternally, Devotingly

Critical

Why are you so critical?

Why do you persist to belittle everything I do?

You accuse me of having a negative outlook

Yet nothing I do is good enough

What do you want?

Is paying a compliment to expensive?

Or do you just prefer the reduced rates of criticism?