You

You sit there,

Your coat hanging loosely over your petit frame,

Your smile rival to that of an angel,

                                            And you look at me.

I stop,

I think back to what I have done today,

Trying to find reason for your attention,

My heart beat quickens,

Your smile widens and I realise,

You’re just happy to see me.

My breath catches in my throat,

I can feel my face turning a bright crimson,

I rush to the bathroom to calm myself.

Sure enough, my face is red,

But I don’t care, your still there when I come back,

My blush returns,

And I catch you looking at me.

I look away,

I can feel your striking eyes on my back,

You’re watching me move closer to you,

I sit on the chair one space away from yours,

I can feel the air shift to accommodate the self consciousness I feel,

You smile again and I have to close my eyes a second,

To compose myself: To smile back.

I feel my body warm as the blood flows around my veins,

Faster and faster like the African drumming of an enthusiastic boy,

You move in your seat,

A subconscious act that brings your perfect body closer to me,

My chest restricts,

I begin to smell the aroma of testosterone in the air,

My lungs grudgingly provide vast amounts of oxygen,

And I smile a slow,

Hopefully, warm smile in your direction.

You’re talking to another person now,

Whilst you face them I study you profile.

You’re skinny, a thin whisp of beauty,

Your skin is a pale colour, you lips defined,

But it’s your eyes that captivate me.

The depth, the raw emotion that radiates from them,

I can see the future I have only dreamed of,

Hidden behind the pain of scorn,

The determination to prove yourself,

Beneath the intense fear of rejection.

I see the love which you hold for me.

My head spins,

I grasp, to some degree,

The extent of my emotions,

You’re aware of my eyes on you now,

You turn you face towards mine,

And before I can look away,

You look me in the eye and I’m stuck.

All too soon it’s time to leave,

My heart sinks at the thought of saying goodbye,

I reach out and hug you,

An electric shock shoots through my body as we touch,

Resisting every urge to kiss you,

I want to stay here holding you,

I promise to speak to you soon,

But as I sullenly leave,

My heart is still with you.